Playing A Game Of Psychological Hide-And-Seek

The Ego (psyche) is one entity that wears a false mask. It is violent, period. But it wears a mask called, “religion” or “non-violence”, etc. The Ego IS DISORDER, period. But, it has fabricated an opposite, called “order”. It is now called “the new world order”. Funny, because the Ego is the past emotional memories (so it is incapable of newness). It reorganizes the past to manufacture a modified version of the past. Yet, the outcome is always the same – suffering and fear of living.

Do you know why humanity is stuck in an endless loop?

It's simple really. The essence of violence is division. You know the old saying, “Divide and conquer!”. Where there is division, there must be conflict, which is violence. Beliefs divide people. People hate each other for not believing the same thing that they believe. We believe because we are too afraid to look at our entire mind (ALL thoughts and feelings without prejudice). So long as we fear holistically observing our emotional responses, we shall continue to take shelter in the false security of believing in whatever.

Why have we allowed ourselves to be a slave to violence/conflict? It's because we are trying to escape from disturbing thoughts and emotions through feeding each other sugar-coated lies. “You scratch my emotional-back and I'll scratch yours” is the implied deal that society has made with one another. That is the foundation of psychological warfare. You see some ugly truth about yourself; for instance, you see that you are envious. But, you don't want to see that. So you tell a so-called friend that you are feeling envious about someone. That so-called friend tries to persuade you that you are better than that. They rationalize that you are not really envious. You accept that lie in order to escape from being in touch with the fact of what you feel. That escape is a division in your mind. The fact has been imprisoned – locked away from the superficial level of your mind. It is suppressed deep down into the subconscious. But, that fact of envy is still there. The mind has ignored it and has chosen to identify with the lie as being the “truth”.

People make an emotional subconscious deal with each other to help each other hide from facing certain disturbing aspects of themselves. This is called “love”. It is actually hatred, in disguise, however. Deception begets pain and suffering in the long run because you are helping another to be in conflict within themselves. A person who is at war within him or herself must treat the world the same way. You can't be at odds within your mind yet be at peace with others. That is an impossibility. What you do within your mind, you do to the world around you. That is why there is no peace.

Now then...

Humanity is habitually seeking an escape from seeing the whole truth about itself. That is the fundamental basis for social unrest. Each person is avoiding facing him or herself exactly as they are. When we sense something about ourselves that we loath, we instantly want to hide from it. Do you recall the child's game of Hide-and-Seek? It is where you run and hide and try not to be found. If you are found then you lose. Well adults are playing a psychological game of Hide-and-Seek within themselves. They are violent and they don't want to see that fact. So they hide their violence through polite phrases to cloak their actual feelings. They pretend like they want to be peaceful or cooperative. But, a mind that hides from observing the disturbing thoughts and feelings within itself is opposing itself. Opposition is conflict. Conflict is violence. Such a mind cannot be in real cooperation with any other human being so long as a state of opposition exists within itself.

The people who bring out or stimulate unpleasant thoughts and feelings, we classify them as an enemy. The people who stimulate pleasure are considered friends. So long as we seek pleasure and run from pain, we are in a state of contradiction. The mind is like night & day or rain & sunshine. Do you see nature choosing one over the other? No. Man chooses out of ignorance. Nature understands that it is both night & day. It does not prefer one over the other. Yet, the mind of humanity does seek a preference. It is ignorant about the fact that it is every single thought & feeling, emotionally. We seek one part of our nature and hide from the other. How stupid. We are the whole thing. We are broken creatures because we hate one side of the mind and cling to the other, which is why the mind invented devil & god (duality). The mind/Ego is both sides.

I keep asking why people are stuck in violence and suffering and inequality. Well, it should be obvious to see. We refuse to see that the devil & god are one in the same entity. “Devil” represents all thoughts and feelings that we despise and “God” represents all thoughts and feelings that we wish to take pleasure in. But, the “Devil” is the original or root of the egotistical tree and “God” is the superficial top of that same tree. The branches/leaves of the tree are polarized with its roots. You can't have a tree without roots. They are inseparable. Yet we play this eternal self-deceptive game within ourselves – villain/hero. The “hero” IS the “villain”. So long as we don't see that fact and insist on dividing them into two separate entities, the conflict goes on and on and on, ad infinitum.

Now then...

Notice the ancient symbol of theater are the “tragedy” & “comedy” masks. That is based on our mind or ego. The frown & the smile. The “smile” is an illusion. There is only the frown. Just like violence & non-violence is an illusion. There is only violence. Those who pose as being non-violent are merely a wolf-in-sheep's clothing (but still a wolf nonetheless). We embrace the wolf-in-sheep's clothing and only want to stamp out the wolf. But, the wolf fabricated the wolf-in-sheep's clothing in order to hide from the painful truth that it is violent. Escaping from the truth only solidifies it. You can't run from what you are, because no matter where you are and what words you cloak yourself in, underneath the truth is there.

Each human being is playing a game of psychological hide-and-seek. Most people are pretenders. They pretend to love, care and want peace while they maintain division deep inside themselves. We pretend that we care about the destruction to our environment. All we want is to get rid of one side of the equation of violence and hold on to the other side. That is not possible. You have to let go of the entire coin of violence: the wolf & the wolf-in-sheep's clothing. You can't spend the heads side of the coin and avoid spending the tails side. When you spend it, you spend both sides at once. Our mind is like the heads and tails of one coin. We are in a state of perpetual contradiction because we want to keep heads (the wolf-in-sheep's clothing: the pretense of “non-violence” = covert) while seeking to oust the tails side: the wolf (which is obvious violence - overt).

We don't want to go live in a third world country where there is “overt” violence where you can obviously see that you are under attack. We are terrified of that life style. Yet, we don't mind being silently murdered “covertly” through the poisoning of our food, water and air. We don't mind getting brain cancer from exposing ourselves to cell phone frequencies that are damaging our brain and reproductive organs. We don't want to know about the radiation over-exposure every time we go through an airport scanning machine. We don't want to know about the brain damage we sustain from exposure to heavy metals raining down on our skin every time they spray our atmosphere with chem-trails. We don't want to admit to ourselves that drug companies are destroying the immune systems of babies through injections (while pretending that it is a necessary protection for the child's health). And the most lethal “covert” danger is believing in ideals, dogmas or any kind of propaganda that generates wars and the sacrifice of each young generation.

So long as we are being silently tortured, we don't care about it. Slow murder is preferred to fast murder. If you are poisoned over many years you accept it as being an accident or some random event. But if you were shot, stabbed or beaten to death, people would vehemently object to that. Do you see how infantile our minds have become? “Covert” violence is the exact same as “overt” violence because in the end you are just as dead! Remember Rev. Jim Jones? He covertly caused the deaths of a group of self-deceived people who wanted to believe that they were living in a “non-violent” community. Look at how that turned out. You can't solely blame Rev. Jones. He merely took advantage of the minds of those who were escaping from seeing themselves completely.

We've been brainwashed for thousands of years to look to outside saviors. It was the inside that created the outside conditions, in the first place. Hiding from seeing the Whole Truth (ALL thoughts/feelings within) is what created the behavior of society as it is. Until we change (by seeing the absurdity of hiding from perceiving our entire mind), society will continue to create horrible situations for themselves. We are irresponsible because we made the mess but we want someone else to clean it up for us. Since it is faulty thinking that has made our lives a mess, it is up to us to understand that faulty thinking, is it not?

Pain and suffering is what the mind produces when it is blind to itself. We don't want to stop being blind. We deliberately turn away from anything that we find to be emotionally unpleasant within. When we turn away, we are being corrupt. Corruption is fragmentation or division. You know when a computer virus corrupts your files, the computer no longer works right. It has fragmented your files to the point where the computer seizes up. Well, the same holds true for your psyche. You are corrupt whenever you refuse to look at your mind 100 per cent. You want to pick and choose what to acknowledge inside your mind and throw the rest away. But guess what? You are everything inside that mind. So when you try to divide your mind into good & bad and fight against the bad, your total mind is divided; therefore it is corrupt and is violent (hurting your life). So another person can come along and easily victimize you. Then you pretend to be innocent. But, you invited the attack when you attacked your own mind by not Holistically Observing or Studying ALL thoughts/feelings, equally. The reason inequality exists in the world is because we do not equally view our thoughts/feelings.

The external world is merely a reflection of what is taking place inside the mind. If the mind is divided, it must be in conflict – at war within itself. So, externally we do the same thing. Its called Cause & Effect. Inward conditions are the Cause of the Outward circumstances, which is the Effect. So long as the internal world is divided, so must the external world reflect that identical reality. That is why nothing will change as long as we continue being immature, irresponsible adults running around pretending like we are fixing our problems. Division = Multiplication of problems. Until Division ends in the mind, physical security will go on being trashed.

We don't want to see ourselves, completely. That is the only problem we have. It is the foundation of every single problem humanity is facing. It is one root, one source that is creating this multitude of problems. Every time we solve a few problems, tons more pop up in their place. Why? Because, we are not solving THE PROBLEM: OUR EGO. EGO is psychological ignorance. It deliberately ignores its nature. It wants to remain in the dark about itself because it wants to remain in existence. It thinks that everything will fall apart if it disappears. But, truthfully, everything will begin to heal and resolve if it dissolves. Since it is the root cause of disasters that are man-made, it is obvious that its absence would bring about clarity of mind because division would cease and wholeness would begin. A thing that is whole is no longer a problem.

Yet we fight and resist with every fiber of our being to remain stupid and violent while we continue to claim that we want an end to this turmoil and ugliness in our lives. We don't really want to be free from pain and suffering and inequality. If we truly did want that, we would realize the importance of observing our thoughts and feelings in the mirror of relationship. We would study EVERY thought and feeling, without prejudice or any opposition, because we would understand that to oppose anything that we feel or think is to be at war within ourselves, and that war would also be reflected out into the world, as well. 

What makes us identify with groups, dogmas, emotional concepts is our fear of observing ourselves. If we did not fear our mind, we would not believe, period. Everyone accepts a belief due to the fact that they can't face facts about themselves, emotionally. If you could face any emotion you have, completely on our own without anyone's help, you would not feel the need to swallow ideals. A mind that can face facts is no longer afraid of itself, therefore, it cannot be fooled by any emotional illusion of (false) security. A mind that sees exactly what it is without trying to change what it sees is in a state of Real Security. It does not emotionally depend on anyone to tell it what it is, for it can do that for itself.

Until we resolve that one problem of EGO, do what you will, problems will continue to intensify and proliferate until people become so disoriented they begin to act more and more crazy. Then the bullies of the human race will come in, pretending to restore order, and massacre them like mad dogs, as history has shown. Yes, humans are insane because they keep on doing the same thing and expect to get a different result. They are so surprised when things blow up in their faces, as if it was the first time.

Violence is nothing but an expression of fear of ones own mind. If we were not afraid to look at ourselves, completely, then division would end. Where there is no division, there is no conflict. Where there is no conflict, there is physical security for ALL. But instead, we reject physical security and opt for an illusion of psychological security through sugar-coated lies. We only want to be partially in touch with our minds. But being partially in touch is not being in touch at all. Either we perceive our WHOLE MIND or not at all. You can't pick and choose. Your body, for instance, cannot pick and choose to partially function. Every cell in your body must work together for the organism to function. If your mind rejects a part of itself, then that prompts the body to reject parts of itself and disease appears.

Why do I write these messages and present it to the world?

It's simple. To be alive one has to communicate. We have no choice. You can't live in this world and not communicate. The quality of that communication depends on either being a communication of Order/Integration or Disorder/Disintegration. Clearly, violence and war are disintegration. A mind that sees itself 100 per cent, is integrated, ergo, the communication must reflect that state of mind. It is taking responsibility for the state of the world by resolving conflict within its own being, thereby changing the world at its root or source of human consciousness.

The mind of humanity is ONE MIND. It is like having many lakes and rivers that all flow into one vast ocean that is globally connected. Whatever takes place at the deepest level of human consciousness affects that entire body of water (mind). Those who live in conflict and profit from it are on a mission to seek out any mind that is not doing their part to remain in conflict. The most fearful are the most aggressive. They terrorize people into maintaining their ancient programmed responses of being divided by holding onto a belief, image or dogma. As long as your mind is divided you can be conquered/controlled. Because fear is your master.

However, a mind that is free from fear because it can observe any and ALL emotional responses stimulated by anyone, such a mind cannot be hijacked or bullied into running away from observing itself. It understands that running is not an option. There is no where to run or hide because such a mind realizes that it is the sum total of ALL of its thoughts/feelings. No matter what the circumstances, it must face all responses to any challenge. Life is nothing but challenge and response. The greatest challenge in life is not what others say or do to you, but the COMPLETE ATTENTION TO YOUR OWN EMOTIONAL RESPONSES, because they are you. And, you can't hide from you. Only a fool thinks they can hide from themselves. So, it is not a question of choosing to face my thoughts and feelings anymore than I can choose to eat, breathe or sleep. That is my function, period. I was made to observe my mind.

We were put into brainwashing centers, called “schools” to be taught to malfunction and do what is NOT natural. It is not natural to divide your mind and believe and be in fear of yourself. It is not natural to put a price tag on life and create inequality. A group of humans stole the natural resources that belong to the world and enslaved us into jobs to sale back to us what belongs to us in the first place. What created a price? The EGO did. Since it divided its own thoughts and feelings and placed a value on each of them, it has done the same thing outwardly by selling our physical security. If we were truly intelligent/wise beings, we would work in total harmony and cooperation. There would be no competition. And, we could simply share what we make.

But when we inwardly create a hierarchy by assigning values to our thoughts and feelings, then we accept the lie that some people have a right to take and hoard the world's resources. They call it legal, but it was the corrupt EGO that invented these rules to give an advantage to the most brutal, violent minds who think they have the so-called right to be our masters by taking what belongs to all of us. Does the air belong to a certain group of people? Does the water belong to a certain group of people? No. If you look at Mother Nature, all creatures simply get up each day and goes out and gets what it needs. I understand that sometimes they get eaten in the process. But, we are more highly evolved than an insect or animal so stop acting like we should behave exactly like them. We have the intelligence to live in cooperation and harmony if we would simply see the error of inward division.

We have the technology to feed the world and clothe the world. But we are divided by psychological tribalism, which dictates that certain groups will starve. It brings about prejudice against those outside of our group. As I said earlier, these groups are formulated out of how we perceive ourselves, inwardly. When we feel an emotion like hatred, and we run away from it by believing in the “concept of love”, we have simply masked hatred, but its contents remain the same. We merely painted the outside to look more pleasant. We have never escaped the original feeling. The qualities that we hate about ourselves we find another person to project those qualities onto, then we attack them.

I am living with someone right now who attacks me because I wont help him to lie to himself. He is a violent person. But he tells himself that he is good and is not a liar. But he is a liar and he is bad. He is bad because he is not honest with himself. If you lie to yourself, you lie to the world, as well. He pretends to be a friend to me. But, a mind that is divided and does not see the truth about itself is its own worse enemy. Such a mind is incapable of befriending anyone. I see through his deceit. He hates me because I see him completely. Every time he attacks me with lies and deceit, I merely listen completely to what he has to say. I hear the falseness in what he says. I observe the feelings that he stirs inside my mind. I run from nothing that he does or says. He is constantly hurting his health each time he tries to trick me into believing that he is a friend.

Order cannot obey disorder; to do so would be to destroy that orderly state of mind. It is not prudent to do anything that would bring harm to yourself. But, each day I get up I understand that the mind of disorder must put pressure on everyone to conform to being blind to their emotional responses. Just check out the internet social networks. It is obviously EGO-driven because they always want you to “like” or “dislike” something. That is division, is it not? They make it appear to be harmless, but it is not. It is a form of subtle brainwashing that reminds you to endlessly divide life so that you can run from whatever you dislike and cling to whatever you like – that is fear. Fear is disorder. There is no fear when you observe fear. Fear is the act of resistance or running away from whatever you are afraid of.

If you are afraid of a certain thought or feeling, are you free to observe it until there is nothing left to observe? Freedom is not about choice; it is about understanding what you are. The mind is a bundle of emotional thoughts and feelings. That entire bundle IS your mind – the Whole bundle. If you divide it and shun parts of it while clinging onto other parts, you are in conflict and have made your physical survival into a “sacrificial lamb”.

Although my roommate intends me harm (but he pretends otherwise), the reason his physical survival is constantly in harms way is because, I am not playing the game of conflict inside myself. Like I said earlier; a mind that Holistically Studies its responses to any emotional challenge from others is not divided, therefore, my physical security is integrated. I don't need to do anything to the aggressor except to observe my responses to his verbal challenges that he presents. This is called, psychological warfare. By the way, WWIII is happening. It is covert, psychological warfare. Our minds are being assaulted on a daily basis through commercials, news and stories about disasters all around us to create hysteria and desperation.

Disorder cannot enter the Orderly dimension because it is divided and cannot see anything but division. So it has only one strategy and that is to try to either intimidate or trick an Orderly mind into dividing itself. Otherwise, it will always harm itself whenever it tries to harm the physical security of the Orderly Mind.

Beyond my personal physical security is my concern for our environment. Humans are the most violent creatures on the planet because they are the only creatures to roam the Earth that threatens the very existence of our entire planet. Species have come and gone, but none of them have ever threatened the balance of nature, itself. The human mind is so lethal that a few human beings must be Orderly or else the Disorderly masters will destroy this world in their mad quest for control and power. They are so inwardly insecure that they must enslave everyone in order to prove a lie, which is that they own this world. You cannot own the world because you don't even own your own life. We are all renting our lives and the lease will be up for all of us some day. So as long as you don't own your life, you don't own anything. Life is to be appreciated and enjoyed in the moments that you have. That's it for all of us.

There is no hierarchy, in reality, because we are all faced with the same challenge of living, which is fear. If we understand the root nature of fear itself, then we are no longer in a state of fear. Fear is what makes people violent. One is afraid of not getting money or not being superior, so one goes out and commits all kinds of horrible acts to overcome their fear. But you can't overcome yourself, who IS fear. I am fear. Anything I do will increase or intensify that. But, what happens when I realize that I am fear? All I can do is observe it – feel it completely. Then there is understanding of that nature. A thing that fully communes with itself is no longer struggling against itself, which is fear (to struggle, to avoid). There is nothing to resist. There is peace because one is finally at home within ones skin. The internal war is over. There is nothing to overcome or oppose. There is bliss.

We all go around whining about the sad state of affairs in the world. But we are the world and the world is us. If you want a peaceful world; a world of equality, then begin inside your own head. See how you are creating division whenever you call yourself a certain race, religion or nationality. There is no need to identify yourself as anything at all. You/We are just humanity, period. Stop promoting inequality through buying into the falsehood of hierarchy. If you would treat ALL your thoughts and feelings equally by giving them ALL your Undivided Attention, you would end external hierarchy. If there is no more hierarchy then we all can have access to physical security. But for that to happen we must begin inside first by paying attention to our responses whenever we are praised or condemned. Your EGO clings to compliments and becomes violent when it gets insulted. Can you simply be aware of that fact without doing anything about it? Can you simply study your responses; and in the studying of them, there is the ACTION of Freedom from Fear/Violence.

Since one is fully aware of their thoughts and feelings, then one is no longer contributing to the violence in the world. Also, another very important factor here is that you are protecting the planet from being destroyed, as well. If everyone were to be divided in their mind, then the military scientists would annihilate this world, rest assured. They are divided in the mind, too, lets not forget. And so, they would destroy the world while they believed they are saving it. Their subconscious is at odds with their conscious. So whatever their superficial mind says it is doing, the subconscious is doing the opposite – just like the politicians. They don't care about this world. They only exist to feed their EGOS by dominating people. And we let them dominate us by being too afraid to study our emotional responses in a holistic manner whenever we are challenged.

I have lived with many bullies throughout my 58 years of life. Each of them destroyed themselves trying to hijack my mind and get me to divide my mind. So what I write about is a combination of studying the observations by Jiddu Krishnamurti and applying what he said to my life. The majority of people who have heard him merely accumulate his words and repeat them like a parrot. But, that is not the essence of Krishnamurti's message. He brought the message so that we could apply the message. You can't copy him or what he said. It is only a living truth if you actually study your mind's responses in the mirror emotional challenges presented by the people you interact with on a daily basis. When faced with death, that is the time to study ones responses. And, I have been faced with death quite a bit and I continue to be. But when you observe the realities that unfold in your emotions, you are psychologically dying to everything as you observe it. Holistic Observation IS psychological death. When you die psychologically, you live biologically. When you seek to continue in a belief and avoid psychological death, then your physical security dies or is severely damaged. That is The Eternal Law.

So die to your thoughts and feelings by watching them with all your heart. Feel the despair, the uncertainty and desperation because all of it is your mind. As you feel it, like you were facing a fierce storm on the open sea of life, you can't run from it for there is no where to run to on the open sea of life. Sail your boat and feel everything that unfolds to its natural end. All weather eventually ends, naturally. Similarly, the mind's emotional storms do end, naturally, when you simply relax and surf the wave to the end of that (emotional) wave. As you surf your emotional waves, you feel a strength and vitality that no other human being can give you. This strength cannot be bought. It comes from embracing your mind as a student that will never stop learning about itself. Then you are the student as well as the teacher, all in one. No one is your master nor are you the master of anyone. You are Wholeness and you are the guardian of Mother Nature because you are at the root of the entire human consciousness having an Orderly impact on that vast collective consciousness of the human race.

This is the Real Job that is what we were biologically created to do. All other jobs are false. They are based on one thing – conflict! You are obligated to feed the EGO of your boss, are you not? When you do that, you are engaging in psychological warfare and maintaining division/contention which ultimately leads to bloodshed, sooner or later. People always brag about spending most of their waking hours at their jobs. Subconsciously, they are bragging about being a warrior. Doing your “job” really means destroying the world, because conflict that goes on and on is what brought down the former civilizations of humanity. No matter what your superficial consciousness might think you are doing; you are actually doing your part to destroy this world so long as you live a life of conflict both inwardly and outwardly.

My job is to study my emotional responses to any given challenge under ALL circumstances. I do not care if I die in the process of doing this because we all have an expiration date, anyway. Either you give your life to destroy this world or you live to protect it. I am protecting the innocent creatures of this world. And I send out this message to the world so that someone can awaken so that change will come to this painful world. EGO is a monster that is choking the life out of this physical world just to sustain its imaginary world of battling the evil and fighting the so-called “good fight”. To fight IS Evil. Studying the mind is not opposing anything. There is no fighting involved.

I did not fight the bullies in my life. I merely observed everything they had to say to me and my emotional responses. What is expected of me is to push back and fight back. That would cause my mind to enter the dimension of conflict, then I could be victimized. But, it is up to me to divide my mind, or not. Now that I understand what causes division in my mind, I can see that it would destroy me and I would also be helping to destroy the physical world. Mother Nature does not deserve to be kicked around and harmed by Man's endless wars and excessive productions (due to greed).

Everything we have comes from Mother Nature. You can't have medicine without her. You can't have technology without her. Without her, we are nothing! She is sacred because she is Whole. When you divide your mind and attack your body, you are also attacking Mother Nature. That is why I said that the EGO is a monster. I often wondered why monsters just attacked for no reason. Now I know why, because the monsters in the movies are reflections of the nature of the EGO. The EGO is divided against itself, which means that it hates itself. It is a loveless entity that replaces real Love with pleasure (like a junky craving a fix), which begets pain.

Real Love is to Holistically Observe/Study your mind without prejudice. Prejudice is based on “Like” & “Dislike”. If I like a thing, I will want to pay attention to it. But if I dislike a thing, I will avoid listening to it. That is division. Where there is division, there is no Love/Compassion. The world is broken because it lacks Real Love. I am not talking about emotionalism. That is not Love. I am talking about awakening and being a light unto oneself by studying yourself exactly as you really are. When you do that, you die to your programming to be violent. When you die to a falsehood, all that remains is Truth.

 

 

And, only the Truth shall set you free from your fear/ignorance/violence. That is the only solution to this hideous EGO/Monster that we must deal with each day of our lives. There is no freedom in fighting the EGO. EGO is fueled by opposition verbally or physically. It wants you to fight it; hell, it desperately needs you to fight it. If you psychologically die to your opposition, then EGO will self-destruct. And, balance can return to this world – Mother Nature can begin to heal from these thousands of wars waged on her holy soil.

Thank you.